anyways here i am again . sound the bad beat alarm. anyways i met this chick online wanna ask her out but dont have the balls as usyual. anyways i got the job at coles green valley as xpected.not that uber into it . so im just here just chatting away and wondering when the gtg is gunna appear cos its bound to appear. so ther we have another life bad beat.top pair really stuffs u around a lot .lotta hands can beat it. anyway . wow. strathfield. who cares. valentines day i just one big coorporate thing to make the card makers a boost in sale and help the florists out a bit where u can get ripped off for the rose. i betcha rose are gunna be shit cheap tommorow but prolly gunna be none its gunna be sold out. well anyways i hit the ace with queen kiker and that guy turns the 5 giving him 2 pair so that really sucked. it was only bonus dollars anyways so yeah not that great. now telling the typical hokin 3k story so yeah. anyhoo h off and i dont have the bals to do shit. so tommorow im gunna open a new swiss bank account unless im lazy. its actually gunna be an award saver. so yeah. oh yeah npls gunna be on tommorow as well. lets see how i will get beat tommorow . probably bad beat last week i went all in with a total bluff and the old man called me with jack high and i got beat first hand. un-effing believable. so lemme think. ok i got it im gunna go all in with ah qh and he goes in with say ac 7c and the flop comes ad qc 7h we both go all in after raising and then it goes 10 c 2 c so he'll cathc running clubs absolute bad beat there.anyways i wonder if il get invited to lyns b'day party. that'll be fun. anyway im listening to forever young by youth group. really sad song. its pretty good. diamonds are forever....im gunna start righting in this regularly its pretty cool when ur bored. maybe i should ask her out. youth are like diamonds. i need to summon enuff courage. guess u gotta build a friendship. i guess i want something fun and not neccesarily physical. or maybe the experience. i still love god. i reckon jesus was a peoples man. that was the greatest thing about him. he represented us which is great. anyways its valentines day... geez am i gunna meet someone... probably not and even if i do wat would i do.. im absolutely clueless, never had a date, never had love reciprocated. some girls did like me but i dint reciprocate. but thats th epast. some are the melody some are the beat, i think im the beat, cos i want a strong heart, i hope my dreams come true. i wanna be forever young. i love my family despite what disputes i have. and i miss my dad a lot. i still could see himon the bike on a sunday. i wish we could have one last fish or even one last maccas meal. i dont wanna go all emotional. i gotta quit porn. its not good. i must be more responsible. i wanna love and be loved. i guess i just have to move on. had a clean up today. so looks like im gunna get up early. feb 14th. money isnt everything. i learnt the hard way. unis gunna start soon. o-week is pretty cool. my friends are pretty cool . they make me feel included lol. im sick of skool politics. i made the weekly tec final this week so thats pretty cool. but i dont play anymore tecs. i wanna get some points so i can get my harley. im on like 13os and i need about 4mill so im getting there. i got a lifetime to do it. i hope ub will still be there and poker is still cool. im only 17 after all. anyways im guuna catch me some zzzzsss. so have a good nite blogger.